Spill it or you'll die!

Can you believe that? Suddenly I choose Jang Geun Suk playlist, Bye Bye Bye and Let Me Cry. Is that wrong? or is there something wrong with me? Just wondering a big question mark that has been around in my head lately. What are we? it could be anything. I don't know! That's not clear enough.

Girls night out, I went last Saturday with my my friends, spent the time together, talked about girl-stuffs. Shocked, yes.. Because we all have the same problems. To reduce it, we did window shopping, ate in the fancy restaurant, stayed at Bar, we drank, chit chat and so on.With all emotion and irrational thoughts. I was mad, angry, and couldn't think so clearly.

At that moment I wanted it all ends, just keep the pain inside (this is what I always do). In fact, I'm so sad, mad, angry, and disappointed. Hell-oooo can you see me over here? Am I too invisible or what? Manner, I don't see any manner in you, at least say good bye and thank you, enuff. Suddenly, my mood changed, you said "Sorry" ~,,~ and I "Forgive". In reality, I'm trying to show how sad and disappointed I am and you don't even realize it. I'm too kind, but I can't be rude. All can say is, this is way hurt for me.

Denial and refusing. Please don't! Because I know you're not that bad. It's still a beginning and seems comfort. Let me heal this pain first. I need to go somewhere else and disappear. I need place to calm my emotion and go far away from this business. Bye friends and college~ period. I just need a rest and be alone in my room. I need to breath, say hello to outside world.

Adios!~